Kick it in the Butt
By Jodi Picoult
This is for the pirates. This is for the fat people. This is for the kids who eat chocolate cake for breakfast.
This is for the ones with a cold. This is for the sick and tired. Kick it in the butt.
This is for the Widows. Kick it in the butt.
This is for the sons and daughters without parents. This is for the homeless. This is for the addicts. Kick it in the butt.
This is for the people with depression. This is for people suffering. The people in the hospital.
So grab life by it's ends and kick it in the butt! You can survive this!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Gandhi
Sometimes I wish I didn't wear my heart on my sleeve. It wouldn't get broken into little pieces. Who is in control of our lives? Not me... When we will own ourselves completely? I wish I wouldn't have lied to the ones I love. I wouldn't have taken the lonely road if I knew I would end up this way. I worry that all my hard work will backfire and turn into ashes.
I don't like to forget... I keep forgetting to do my homework. I keep forgetting to be myself and love who I am. Why must the world be this way. So many people stop and stare. I wake up in the morning afraid to get out of bed. What will this day bring? ANY day we can self-destruct. ANY day we can die. ANY day we can lose everything we love. Does anyone realize that each day we have on earth is a gift from the Lord?
At night I get down on my knees and pray. Pray for the world to get better. Pray for the sick, the lonely, the ones without homes. I pray for my mom. I pray for my sisters, my nieces and nephews. We pray for the things we love. However, the best things in life, are not things. They are people.
We love to see the light. When will be the last day?
but tonight, is not the last time i'll see the light.
I don't like to forget... I keep forgetting to do my homework. I keep forgetting to be myself and love who I am. Why must the world be this way. So many people stop and stare. I wake up in the morning afraid to get out of bed. What will this day bring? ANY day we can self-destruct. ANY day we can die. ANY day we can lose everything we love. Does anyone realize that each day we have on earth is a gift from the Lord?
At night I get down on my knees and pray. Pray for the world to get better. Pray for the sick, the lonely, the ones without homes. I pray for my mom. I pray for my sisters, my nieces and nephews. We pray for the things we love. However, the best things in life, are not things. They are people.
We love to see the light. When will be the last day?
but tonight, is not the last time i'll see the light.
My Journey
Ordinary World: Wake up, go to school, go to work, go home do homework. Rinse and repeat.
Call to Adventure: Have to decide where I want to go to college.
Refusal: I won't worry about it till the last minute.
Mentor: My mom comes to talk to me to tell me it is very important to apply to college now.
Crossing Threshold: I will no apply to colleges and get my school work under control.
Test: Will I get accepted?
Approach: I have too much work right now. I can't handle school and work at the same time.
Ordeal: I get a letter in the mail and I got rejected to one college. But the next one will be good and I'll be okay!
Reward: All my hard work in school and applying to colleges finally paid off. I get a letter from the U of Arizona, and I am accepted!!!
Call to Adventure: Have to decide where I want to go to college.
Refusal: I won't worry about it till the last minute.
Mentor: My mom comes to talk to me to tell me it is very important to apply to college now.
Crossing Threshold: I will no apply to colleges and get my school work under control.
Test: Will I get accepted?
Approach: I have too much work right now. I can't handle school and work at the same time.
Ordeal: I get a letter in the mail and I got rejected to one college. But the next one will be good and I'll be okay!
Reward: All my hard work in school and applying to colleges finally paid off. I get a letter from the U of Arizona, and I am accepted!!!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Film Analysis
Horrible Bosses (2011)
Ordinary World: Dale is a dental assistant working for a horrible boss that is sexually harrassing him. He lives his day to day life the same way. Goes to work, deals with his HORRIBLE boss then goes to the bar to meet up with his 3 friends that are in the same situation.
Call To Adventure: Dales friends present him with an idea to "get rid of"" their bosses to help them survive their jobs they cannot leave.
Refusal to the Call: Dale thinks this idea is crazy and refuses to have anything to do with killing their bosses.
Meeting with the Mentor: Dale and his friends go to the most dangerous town in the state they live in where there is the most carjackings according to Gregory. They talk with this young fella and he says he will help them out to kill their bosses.
Crossing the Threshold: Dale and his friends do some "recon" finding out exactly what their bosses do on a daily basis. Getting into the mind set that they are going to kill their bosses.
Tests, Allies, Enemies: Dale faces Mr. Harkin, one of his friends bosses, one of the bosses they are trying to kill. Mr. Harkin finds Dale covering watch while his other friends snoop through Mr. Harkins house. Mr. Harkin has an allergic reaction to peanuts in front of Dale. Dale is trying to save him with his allergy shot, and his friends see him through the window and it looks like Dale is stabbing Mr. Harkin.
Ordeal: Dale goes to Mr. Harkins house to put peanuts in his shampoo so he will die from the allergic reaction. He then talks to his friends and tells them he doesn't think he can do this. That it would be wrong to kill someone. Dale and his friends are asked to the Police station for some questioning because there is suspision that they have something to do with killing one of the bosses.
Reward: In the end Dale blackmails his boss in the act of sexually harrassing him and tells her he is taking a 2 week expensive vaction that his boss his paying for and tells his boss that if he returns to his workplace the same way, his boss will be sent to jail.
Ordinary World: Dale is a dental assistant working for a horrible boss that is sexually harrassing him. He lives his day to day life the same way. Goes to work, deals with his HORRIBLE boss then goes to the bar to meet up with his 3 friends that are in the same situation.
Call To Adventure: Dales friends present him with an idea to "get rid of"" their bosses to help them survive their jobs they cannot leave.
Refusal to the Call: Dale thinks this idea is crazy and refuses to have anything to do with killing their bosses.
Meeting with the Mentor: Dale and his friends go to the most dangerous town in the state they live in where there is the most carjackings according to Gregory. They talk with this young fella and he says he will help them out to kill their bosses.
Crossing the Threshold: Dale and his friends do some "recon" finding out exactly what their bosses do on a daily basis. Getting into the mind set that they are going to kill their bosses.
Tests, Allies, Enemies: Dale faces Mr. Harkin, one of his friends bosses, one of the bosses they are trying to kill. Mr. Harkin finds Dale covering watch while his other friends snoop through Mr. Harkins house. Mr. Harkin has an allergic reaction to peanuts in front of Dale. Dale is trying to save him with his allergy shot, and his friends see him through the window and it looks like Dale is stabbing Mr. Harkin.
Ordeal: Dale goes to Mr. Harkins house to put peanuts in his shampoo so he will die from the allergic reaction. He then talks to his friends and tells them he doesn't think he can do this. That it would be wrong to kill someone. Dale and his friends are asked to the Police station for some questioning because there is suspision that they have something to do with killing one of the bosses.
Reward: In the end Dale blackmails his boss in the act of sexually harrassing him and tells her he is taking a 2 week expensive vaction that his boss his paying for and tells his boss that if he returns to his workplace the same way, his boss will be sent to jail.
Friday, November 11, 2011
OrDiNaRy WoRlD
Meet Danielle. She is an 18 year old high school student. She has an every day routine Monday through Friday. Wake up, go to school, go to work till 11pm, then go home and do homework, then go to sleep. Rinse and repeat. Weekends aren't that exciting either. Work all weekend, and sleep. She lives an ordinary life. Not too fabulous. The money situation in her life is really tight, and she barely has anything.
Until one day her mom came to her and said, "Sweetie, we have to move out of Utah. Pack your stuff." They packed up for 24 hours straight. On the road they go headed towards Arizona. Danielle didn't want to move. Leaving where she grew up behind. She was the new girl in school. Always being laughed at, and picked on. There was a girl just like her that walked up and down the halls with her head bowed down in shame. One day they conveniently bumped into each other. Confused, Danielle picked up her books and walked away as fast as she could.
Danielle avoided this girl every day. For some reason there was something different about this girl and she did not want to be apart of it. Eventually this strange girl caught up with Danielle. When Danielle looked at this girl, she realized she had been avoiding herself the entire time. Hiding from who she truly is.
Until one day her mom came to her and said, "Sweetie, we have to move out of Utah. Pack your stuff." They packed up for 24 hours straight. On the road they go headed towards Arizona. Danielle didn't want to move. Leaving where she grew up behind. She was the new girl in school. Always being laughed at, and picked on. There was a girl just like her that walked up and down the halls with her head bowed down in shame. One day they conveniently bumped into each other. Confused, Danielle picked up her books and walked away as fast as she could.
Danielle avoided this girl every day. For some reason there was something different about this girl and she did not want to be apart of it. Eventually this strange girl caught up with Danielle. When Danielle looked at this girl, she realized she had been avoiding herself the entire time. Hiding from who she truly is.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
BLURRRRRRBS
Stronger Than I Am - Lee Ann Womack
Cynthia is a widow raising a beautiful young child. As this child grows Cynthia learns to see that her daughter is emotionally and mentally stronger than she is. Cynthia looks to her daughter for the strength that she needs. After losing her daddy all she can be is strong. She learns to forgive and forget.
I Hope You Dance - Lee Ann Womack
My mother is singing to me. Singing so beautifully. Telling me to be strong. Don't let fear get in the way. She says "Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance." Don't let life tear you down, because it is a crazy world out there. Even if someone hurts you, you pull yourself back up and keep on going. "Thanks mom! I love you." "I love you too sweet angel."
Maggie Creek Road - Reba McEntire
My crazy, crazy mom. I never listen to her. She doesn't know what she is talking about. Always telling me to be careful. I tell her, "I KNOW MOM! I'M A BIG GIRL!" My date picks me up and we drive away. The night goes on. I say no! He doesn't listen, mama always knows. We go back. Mama is at the driver window with a pistol in her hand at him. You don't want to see her go to war.
Cynthia is a widow raising a beautiful young child. As this child grows Cynthia learns to see that her daughter is emotionally and mentally stronger than she is. Cynthia looks to her daughter for the strength that she needs. After losing her daddy all she can be is strong. She learns to forgive and forget.
I Hope You Dance - Lee Ann Womack
My mother is singing to me. Singing so beautifully. Telling me to be strong. Don't let fear get in the way. She says "Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance." Don't let life tear you down, because it is a crazy world out there. Even if someone hurts you, you pull yourself back up and keep on going. "Thanks mom! I love you." "I love you too sweet angel."
Maggie Creek Road - Reba McEntire
My crazy, crazy mom. I never listen to her. She doesn't know what she is talking about. Always telling me to be careful. I tell her, "I KNOW MOM! I'M A BIG GIRL!" My date picks me up and we drive away. The night goes on. I say no! He doesn't listen, mama always knows. We go back. Mama is at the driver window with a pistol in her hand at him. You don't want to see her go to war.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
My Story
Dear Diary (Present)
My mom and I are getting to the point where we fully trust eachother. I really miss her though, it seems like I haven't been around her enough. I went to see my best friend today. She is going through some rough times. I'm praying for her. My ex-boyfriend text me the other day, I thought that was a little awkward. UGH I work Friday and Saturday this weekend.. AGAIN. I don't like the new floor manager. She is kind of a freak. I really like this guy I work with though, he is so sweet. I wish he would ask me out. JEEZ what is wrong with men?! We will never know..... My dog (Suzie Lou) is so sweet, I love how she sleeps right next to me to keep me safe. I will never be able to pay my mom back for getting me my baby girl! (Suzie) Horses are cool, I always loved riding one. I love the movie Mulan, it's so funny. Tarzan made me teary eyed a little last night. Oh man, I have so much going on I don't know what I'm going to do....
My mom and I are getting to the point where we fully trust eachother. I really miss her though, it seems like I haven't been around her enough. I went to see my best friend today. She is going through some rough times. I'm praying for her. My ex-boyfriend text me the other day, I thought that was a little awkward. UGH I work Friday and Saturday this weekend.. AGAIN. I don't like the new floor manager. She is kind of a freak. I really like this guy I work with though, he is so sweet. I wish he would ask me out. JEEZ what is wrong with men?! We will never know..... My dog (Suzie Lou) is so sweet, I love how she sleeps right next to me to keep me safe. I will never be able to pay my mom back for getting me my baby girl! (Suzie) Horses are cool, I always loved riding one. I love the movie Mulan, it's so funny. Tarzan made me teary eyed a little last night. Oh man, I have so much going on I don't know what I'm going to do....
Friday, October 21, 2011
DO NOT GIVE UP
you may be SEARCHING for your thinking process
it is your constant reminder
you may be EXPEREMENTING
read the bold statement above (I'm talking about the titile)
read it again, have it tattooed onto your hairy arm
you may be EXPLORING new ideas
you have new uncharted ideas
this is a constant reminder
the beginning, remember, every time
this is your perfect EXPEREMENT
you are searching to tie all the main parts together
later on....
read the bold statement again
remember it after every meal :)
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Don't Judge Someone You Don't Know Stupid....
Think about it... You walk down the halls of Lone Peak and people look at you... Don't you ever wonder what they are thinking about? Did they look at you weird? Why would they do that? Can someone really stand there and judge you on the outside for the person THEY think you are... ?? We have this "thing" (haha) come to our school every year called BE THE CHANGE! Most of the school has been to it now, and don't you think that people would actually pay attention and make a change? Well no, no one paid attention, and really no one changed. I think thats ridiculous!
I know for a fact that no one changed, because I was there 2 years in a row. I felt so happy and calm at Be the Change, but after it was all said and done, and the students went back to their real lives, it was all the same as it was before. That's messed up! No one took it seriously. But you know I sure did.
I know how this feels because pretty much every day I am judged for the person other people think I am. That hurts. You don't know how much it hurts unless someone does it to YOU! I am not LDS and I am pretty sure that's why people judge me, but guess what.
The reality of it is, I'm not the only one in the school. I'm not a bad person, so quit judging me. You don't need to be LDS to be a good person. Just be happy and friendly. And make a new friend every day, because you know. Until you actually get to know someone, you never know who they really are when you're not looking.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
What is my perfect crime?
What is my perfect crime? I rob a bank, do I go for the vault? OF COURSE I DO! There is lots of money in it :) muah ah ah ah! There is a COP waiting for me. OH CRAP I got caught, this is not good!
He looks at me and says, "I'm here to help you my friend!" I think this is weird, why would a cop help me? WHY NOT?! He calls me Tiffany, I say no, We Make Love All Night.....
Sweet I have lots of money now. What should I do with it. I tell him to meet me in Utopia. I fly to Paris instead, CONFUSED. I want the money to myself. That's selfish.
Two years pass by, I never got caught. I call my cop friend and he meets me in Florida where it's always good weather. We talk, then make love all night, again! I give him some money, it's almost gone. I need to steal a car, then rob another bank.
No wait, I'll kidnap Phil Mickelson. WHY? 1. Because i can. 2. because i need to ;) This is where the story gets interesting. I have a lesson by Phil Mickelson, I join the LPGA. I win lots of money.
No need to rob another bank. I marry the cop. We make love all night.... really again?! Yep that's right again! We have children, and LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER ;)
-Tiffany <3
He looks at me and says, "I'm here to help you my friend!" I think this is weird, why would a cop help me? WHY NOT?! He calls me Tiffany, I say no, We Make Love All Night.....
Sweet I have lots of money now. What should I do with it. I tell him to meet me in Utopia. I fly to Paris instead, CONFUSED. I want the money to myself. That's selfish.
Two years pass by, I never got caught. I call my cop friend and he meets me in Florida where it's always good weather. We talk, then make love all night, again! I give him some money, it's almost gone. I need to steal a car, then rob another bank.
No wait, I'll kidnap Phil Mickelson. WHY? 1. Because i can. 2. because i need to ;) This is where the story gets interesting. I have a lesson by Phil Mickelson, I join the LPGA. I win lots of money.
No need to rob another bank. I marry the cop. We make love all night.... really again?! Yep that's right again! We have children, and LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER ;)
-Tiffany <3
Monday, October 10, 2011
GOLF
GOLF.... Who came up with this silly game? I think it started off with men hitting the ground with sticks. I WONDER??? The only thing constant about golf is its inconstancy LOL!! :) The good thing about golf is that women are alowed to play now. Back then men were only allowed to play. What a rip off is that?! Muah ah ah ah ;)
(mmm this gaterade is good)
(so is this milky way haha)
If you look back on the progress people have made with golf over the years you would laugh. I mean look at this ball!!! crazy right?!
that's too weiiiirrrrddd! haha
You look at the technology now and think wow, if it wasn't for this I'd still be hitting that kind of ball. HAHA!!
Golf is fun.
Golf is exciting.
Golf is relaxing.
Golf is funny.
Golf is love.
Golf is wonder.
Golf is honesty.
Golf is apart of your soul.
Golf is never without you.
Let's just say, I LOVE GOLF!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
(mmm this gaterade is good)
(so is this milky way haha)
If you look back on the progress people have made with golf over the years you would laugh. I mean look at this ball!!! crazy right?!
that's too weiiiirrrrddd! haha You look at the technology now and think wow, if it wasn't for this I'd still be hitting that kind of ball. HAHA!!
Golf is fun.
Golf is exciting.
Golf is relaxing.
Golf is funny.
Golf is love.
Golf is wonder.
Golf is honesty.
Golf is apart of your soul.
Golf is never without you.
Let's just say, I LOVE GOLF!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
Thursday, September 29, 2011
ROCK out TO my DIRECT orders :P
ROCK OUT!!!!!!!!Rock out! Rock out like it's your very first time rocking out!
Hear the beat to the music. You're rocking out.
What are you thinking about?
Only ROCKING OUT!
Rock out like no one is looking.
like you rule the world.
like you are famous.
like you are not famous.
Please. ROCK out because you love to, because you found your love. Rock out every day like it is 2012 ;)
ROCK OUT LIKE YOU ARE FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME. LIKE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH THE SONG YOU ARE ROCKING OUT TOO. LIKE YOU JUST GOT A NEW JOB. LIKE YOU LIKE A BOY SITTING NEXT TO YOU IN ENGLISH CLASS.
You look at that boy you like in english class... will he look back. You tell him I just wanted to give you notice that i noticed that you noticed me and i wanted to let you know that i noticed you too.
What now? Are you rocking out? The best song is playing on the radio. Rock out like you just found a 20 dollar bill. No wait a 100 dollar bill. Wait a 435 dollar bill! muah ah ah ah ah ah :) Evil laugh!
Rock out like snoopy and his friends do!!
ROCK OUT!!!!!!! rock out!
rock out!
ROCK OUT LIKE ITS 1965!!!!!
Rock out because i told you too. Rock out because your invisible friend told you too. GO live in a pineapple and have a star fish friend (hehehehehe)
we are rockin around the christmas tree! rock out like it is christmas day. like your a happy child on christmas day like you just got a brand new bicycle. rock out with your family every day!! rock out like santa is with you. whoops you grow a white beard after trying on his coat and now your santa clause, rock out dooooode !!!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
My BIRTHDAY!
Well the time has come this year again...
It's my birthday on Saturday! I'm so excited
because I am turning the big 18! SCARY!!!I hope
it is going to be a good one! I'm looking forward to it!
Well my mom and I have already celebrated some of it
we went to the circus and dinner, and mmmm it was so
YUMMY! I about peed my pants though because I was
laughing so much! Who knows what 18 will be like? I'm
looking forward to it! :) I'm having a party too! Muah ah ah ;)
Friday, September 23, 2011
Death, Fears, Life, and HOPE
I am afraid of dying. Isn't everyone though? Are you afraid of dying? I don't want to die. I'm afraid of losing my mom. I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm afraid of losing my family, friends, the joy that I have to golf. I'm afraid of being ordinary. Really, who wants to be ordinary? Be EXTRA ordinary :)
I live in the present.
Don't be sad, don't think about death. Think about life.
I wake up every morning and thank the Lord for another day. Who knows when we will all die? I don't like to think about that. It's too depressing. Live life in the now.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
Love the people who treat you right, & forget the ones who don't.
Believe that everything happens for a reason.
No one said LIFE would be easy, they just said it would be worth it :)
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Seven Days In Utopia
Well fellow friends if you like golf a little bit or a lot, keep reading.
My mom and I went to go see this movie called Seven Days in Utopia. Rating = 5 Stars!! I loved it so much that we went to go see it again in the same week!
MUAH AH AH AH AH!! The movie is about golf, more the mental part of the game. It teaches you a lot and it changed my game forever.
For example... (This part gets goooood) :P
I went to a golf course with my mom to play on Sunday after church and I wasn't expecting anything at all right?! We were planning on playing 27 holes, I know we are crazy, so we started off on the first 18 and let me tell you the tee times were so backed up we were sitting there picking our noses! (Just kidding, not really) ANYWAY, getting off topic, I was hitting some really good shots, then what do you know I hit a bad one! Well I kept going and going, and by the time we were done 5 hours later, I counted up my score card, with out cheating and I had shot a 75... THAT'S ONLY 5 OVER PAR!! WHAT THE ****?! (Sorry if that offended you) HOLY CHEESE ITZ!! Was the possible? Did I really play that well? I guess I did. It did not seem like it because we were waiting forever on each hole.
I was so proud of my self and so was my mom. Oh FYI my mom shot a 79 :) Be proud of her too :D
Okay so once we were done with that 18 I was pumped up for another 9 holes. We go out and I start off with PAR, okay this is looking good. We keep going, no wait this time. I had a little hiccup on 11 but I moved on.
Found out that I could get on the green in 2 on a PAR 5 and birdie the hole. The next hole came along and I found out that I drove the green on a PAR 4 and I was only 6 feet from the hole! What are the chances of that! And that green is really hard to get on in 1. Well I made my putt for EAGLE and moved :)
All said and done, counted my score up, I had shot a 32 on PAR 35! I was so stoked! Lowest score I have ever had! What now SHAWN!!! (inside joke) MUAH AH AH AH AH!! Gotta love it!
OHHH.. crap anyway the movie tells you See it, Feel it, Trust it. See the shot, paint the picture in your head. Feel the swing, feel yourself hit the ball on the green. Trust the shot, trust that the ball will land where you pictured it to. If you do that, you will shoot in the 60's or 70's, just like me :) Go see the movie too. I don't care if it costs money, go see the freaking movie, jeez! :)
Love y'all ;)
My mom and I went to go see this movie called Seven Days in Utopia. Rating = 5 Stars!! I loved it so much that we went to go see it again in the same week!
MUAH AH AH AH AH!! The movie is about golf, more the mental part of the game. It teaches you a lot and it changed my game forever.
For example... (This part gets goooood) :P
I went to a golf course with my mom to play on Sunday after church and I wasn't expecting anything at all right?! We were planning on playing 27 holes, I know we are crazy, so we started off on the first 18 and let me tell you the tee times were so backed up we were sitting there picking our noses! (Just kidding, not really) ANYWAY, getting off topic, I was hitting some really good shots, then what do you know I hit a bad one! Well I kept going and going, and by the time we were done 5 hours later, I counted up my score card, with out cheating and I had shot a 75... THAT'S ONLY 5 OVER PAR!! WHAT THE ****?! (Sorry if that offended you) HOLY CHEESE ITZ!! Was the possible? Did I really play that well? I guess I did. It did not seem like it because we were waiting forever on each hole.
I was so proud of my self and so was my mom. Oh FYI my mom shot a 79 :) Be proud of her too :D
Okay so once we were done with that 18 I was pumped up for another 9 holes. We go out and I start off with PAR, okay this is looking good. We keep going, no wait this time. I had a little hiccup on 11 but I moved on.
Found out that I could get on the green in 2 on a PAR 5 and birdie the hole. The next hole came along and I found out that I drove the green on a PAR 4 and I was only 6 feet from the hole! What are the chances of that! And that green is really hard to get on in 1. Well I made my putt for EAGLE and moved :)
All said and done, counted my score up, I had shot a 32 on PAR 35! I was so stoked! Lowest score I have ever had! What now SHAWN!!! (inside joke) MUAH AH AH AH AH!! Gotta love it!
OHHH.. crap anyway the movie tells you See it, Feel it, Trust it. See the shot, paint the picture in your head. Feel the swing, feel yourself hit the ball on the green. Trust the shot, trust that the ball will land where you pictured it to. If you do that, you will shoot in the 60's or 70's, just like me :) Go see the movie too. I don't care if it costs money, go see the freaking movie, jeez! :)
Love y'all ;)
Sunday, September 18, 2011
My Broken Dreams. . . . . .
I walk alone... I walk alone...
I walk this lonely street full of darkness. The sky is an old grey color. I walk down this road seeing the dark ending wanting to stop. But I have to keep walking, to see what could be. I walk towards the end of this road. I have no future. I have no life. I am stupid. I am ugly. I have no family, no friends, no love.
I walk alone... I walk alone...
I used to have light in my life. The presence of love. The presence of sweet joyful laughter has escaped. I walk this lonely street full of depression. I have nothing to look forward to. I have nothing holding my head up high. I want to leave this earth and be with my friends and family. Why did they leave me?! Who will come and rescue me? Will anyone rescue me? I've walked this lonely road all alone for many years.
I walk alone... I walk alone...
I promised. I promised her I would continue my dream. I am continuing my dream only with her by my side only in spirit. I walk this course alone. I have no one to guide me. No one to tell me where to aim. I am walking only with my shadow. I have no one to back me up. I have nothing to persue. I want to be done.
I walk alone... I walk alone...
I walk this lonely street full of darkness. The sky is an old grey color. I walk down this road seeing the dark ending wanting to stop. But I have to keep walking, to see what could be. I walk towards the end of this road. I have no future. I have no life. I am stupid. I am ugly. I have no family, no friends, no love.
I walk alone... I walk alone...
I used to have light in my life. The presence of love. The presence of sweet joyful laughter has escaped. I walk this lonely street full of depression. I have nothing to look forward to. I have nothing holding my head up high. I want to leave this earth and be with my friends and family. Why did they leave me?! Who will come and rescue me? Will anyone rescue me? I've walked this lonely road all alone for many years.
I walk alone... I walk alone...
I promised. I promised her I would continue my dream. I am continuing my dream only with her by my side only in spirit. I walk this course alone. I have no one to guide me. No one to tell me where to aim. I am walking only with my shadow. I have no one to back me up. I have nothing to persue. I want to be done.
I walk alone... I walk alone...
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
I am thinking about you!
I'm thinking about you like bagels think of cream cheese. I'm thinking about you like Charlie and Suzie think of jerky!
Like angels think of heaven. Like feet think about shoes.
I'm thinking about you like pants think of legs. I'm thinking about you like buns think of hambergers.
I'm thinking about you mom every single day like flowers think about water. Like the sun thinks of the sky. Like the moon thinks about the stars. Mom I love you oh so very much and I always worry about you. I want you to be okay. I think about you over and over again every minute of the day! I hope you are okay! I think about you like golf clubs think of golf balls. I think about you like work is stress! I love you mom!
Like angels think of heaven. Like feet think about shoes.
I'm thinking about you like pants think of legs. I'm thinking about you like buns think of hambergers.
I'm thinking about you mom every single day like flowers think about water. Like the sun thinks of the sky. Like the moon thinks about the stars. Mom I love you oh so very much and I always worry about you. I want you to be okay. I think about you over and over again every minute of the day! I hope you are okay! I think about you like golf clubs think of golf balls. I think about you like work is stress! I love you mom!
My world today
So many things have changed as I have grown up. I am almost 18 years old. Time to grow up! But who really wants to grow up?? Everyone wants to be a kid! I know on the outside over the years I will look older, but inside I will have a kid left in me. No one wants to grow up and have to pay for everything, I mean come on, things can get expensive! No one wants to leave home, no one wants to see the real world. If you think about how you're feeling while you read this you'll understand. No one wants to say it out loud but I know each and everyone of us do NOT want to grow up!
I want to make this blog personal so people can see me but no one will know who I am really.
LIfe is hard at times, you lose track of what's happening around you... There are so many challenges that I must get through and sometimes I just want to give up. But can you really just give up? Can you just let it all go and never come back? I know that probably doesn't make any sense. Why?!! WHY is the big question all of us ask every single day! Why this, why that? But I have learned, that we don't need to ask why because no one said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it. We all have our own lives, and some are worse than others, some take theirs for granted, some don't appreciate what they really have in life. But take a step back and step into another persons shoes then I am sure you would think about the world differently and understand. Don't take your life for granted.
I want to make this blog personal so people can see me but no one will know who I am really.
LIfe is hard at times, you lose track of what's happening around you... There are so many challenges that I must get through and sometimes I just want to give up. But can you really just give up? Can you just let it all go and never come back? I know that probably doesn't make any sense. Why?!! WHY is the big question all of us ask every single day! Why this, why that? But I have learned, that we don't need to ask why because no one said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it. We all have our own lives, and some are worse than others, some take theirs for granted, some don't appreciate what they really have in life. But take a step back and step into another persons shoes then I am sure you would think about the world differently and understand. Don't take your life for granted.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Love is . . . .
Top Ten List of What LOVE is... <3
10. Love is unconditionial
9. Love is a rollercoaster
8. Love is magical
7. Love is commitment
6. Love is forever
5. Love is worry and concern
4. Love is protection
3. Love is undying
2. Love is fun
1. Love is beautiful
10. Love is unconditionial
9. Love is a rollercoaster
8. Love is magical
7. Love is commitment
6. Love is forever
5. Love is worry and concern
4. Love is protection
3. Love is undying
2. Love is fun
1. Love is beautiful
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
I love Golf
The beauty all around me
Fail me not my driver
I count on thee
If not, count on my putter
Imagined I never felt
The love, the Joy, the Peace
My heart ever so did melt
Overwhelming happiness never to cease
I hold in my heart so dear
The warm wind in my face
The pure blue sky so dear
Dreaming for an ace!
Monday, August 29, 2011
Quotes from the heart
"It may be stormy now, but it cannot rain forever." This one really makes me feel like if you are sad or depressed it will only last for a short time. It is very truthful as well. I have been telling this to my good friend every day, and you know it can actually make someone smile. Make it your goal to make someone smile every day!
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference." This quote has been said over and over again throughout my family for as long as I can remember. Life isn't easy and sometimes we all just want to give up because of the paths that we must take, but that what life is really about. Taking the long road and going through the motions. It's what makes us stronger. God does not give us any challenges he knows we can't handle. We are all given a test, and I believe these tests are meant to be difficult. That's what life is!
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason." I really like this, because life really is too short to have ANY regrets at all. Don't live your life with regrets, it doesn't make it any fun! Live Laugh and Love as much as you can. Enjoy the little things :)
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference." This quote has been said over and over again throughout my family for as long as I can remember. Life isn't easy and sometimes we all just want to give up because of the paths that we must take, but that what life is really about. Taking the long road and going through the motions. It's what makes us stronger. God does not give us any challenges he knows we can't handle. We are all given a test, and I believe these tests are meant to be difficult. That's what life is!
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason." I really like this, because life really is too short to have ANY regrets at all. Don't live your life with regrets, it doesn't make it any fun! Live Laugh and Love as much as you can. Enjoy the little things :)
Thursday, August 25, 2011
I wish....
I wish I never lied to the ones I love. I wish I could fly to a new world and start over. I wish everyone would like me for who I am. I wish I knew the answers to everything.
Everything is changing. I don't know who I am anymore. My world is spinning round and round and I can't get it to stop.
I wish my family was closer to me. I wish my mother wasn't sick. I wish my Dad was here to see me grow up.
These things in my life I have always wished for and none of them seem to come true. I wonder if we had a time machine, what would we really do with it? Would the people in this world take advantage of it? Or would the people use it sparingly, and for the right reasons. Life is short... And don't we all wish it could last forever?
Everything is changing. I don't know who I am anymore. My world is spinning round and round and I can't get it to stop.
I wish my family was closer to me. I wish my mother wasn't sick. I wish my Dad was here to see me grow up.
These things in my life I have always wished for and none of them seem to come true. I wonder if we had a time machine, what would we really do with it? Would the people in this world take advantage of it? Or would the people use it sparingly, and for the right reasons. Life is short... And don't we all wish it could last forever?
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