Monday, January 9, 2012

If you REALLY knew me...

If you really knew me you would know that I am very depressed. If you really knew me you would know that my dad passed away when I was two. So my mom has been raising me as a single parent since then.

If you really cared enough to know anything about me, it would be that I have many, many regrets. Therefore my decisions are based upon those regrets. If you really knew me you would know I have taken care of my mom for the last seven years. I have grown up way too fast.. I feel like I am 25 inside.

If you really knew me... Well, you'd know I'm not that smart in school. I try to maintain any good grade I can. I am not any sort of well known in my school. I feel like a ghost walking down the halls. I keep to myself and no one seems to mind. It kind of makes me, sad...

If you really knew me you would understand how compassionate, kind, and caring I am. I am a pleaser. I take care of people. I make people happy before myself.. I don't mind it.

If you really knew me you would know that I have fallen in love before, until he broke my heart. <3
If you really knew me you could see what makes me tick,  what makes me happy, then you could make me happy. Don't feel sad for me. I'm sure I will be just fine :)


I really love the poem by Mike Taylor, Thinking about you.
Mr. Nelson showed it to us in class and I immediately thought, "Why can't I write like that?"
I read through his poetry and it has so many emotions. It can be funny, but sad as well. There is so much meaning into his poetry. I've always loved writing so it makes me mad that I can't be as good as Mike Taylor.

I like where he says, "Like cops think about.... arresting people."
That is my favorite part!!!!
"It's always sunny like rainbows and bunnies!" SO FUNNY! See when a poet can make you laugh and cry at the same time or in the same poem, they're doing a good job.
I wish I had the courage to perform my writing like him... SO COOL!!!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Shake The Dust

Kick it in the Butt
By Jodi Picoult

This is for the pirates. This is for the fat people. This is for the kids who eat chocolate cake for breakfast.

This is for the ones with a cold. This is for the sick and tired. Kick it in the butt.

This is for the Widows. Kick it in the butt.

This is for the sons and daughters without parents. This is for the homeless. This is for the addicts. Kick it in the butt.

This is for the people with depression. This is for people suffering. The people in the hospital.

So grab life by it's ends and kick it in the butt! You can survive this!


Sometimes I wish I didn't wear my heart on my sleeve. It wouldn't get broken into little pieces. Who is in control of our lives? Not me... When we will own ourselves completely? I wish I wouldn't have lied to the ones I love. I wouldn't have taken the lonely road if I knew I would end up this way. I worry that all my hard work will backfire and turn into ashes.

I don't like to forget... I keep forgetting to do my homework. I keep forgetting to be myself and love who I am. Why must the world be this way. So many people stop and stare. I wake up in the morning afraid to get out of bed. What will this day bring? ANY day we can self-destruct. ANY day we can die. ANY day we can lose everything we love. Does anyone realize that each day we have on earth is a gift from the Lord?

At night I get down on my knees and pray. Pray for the world to get better. Pray for the sick, the lonely, the ones without homes. I pray for my mom. I pray for my sisters, my nieces and nephews. We pray for the things we love. However, the best things in life, are not things. They are people.

We love to see the light. When will be the last day?
but tonight, is not the last time i'll see the light.

My Journey

Ordinary World: Wake up, go to school, go to work, go home do homework. Rinse and repeat.
Call to Adventure: Have to decide where I want to go to college.
Refusal: I won't worry about it till the last minute.
Mentor: My mom comes to talk to me to tell me it is very important to apply to college now.
Crossing Threshold: I will no apply to colleges and get my school work under control.
Test: Will I get accepted?
Approach: I have too much work right now. I can't handle school and work at the same time.
Ordeal: I get a letter in the mail and I got rejected to one college. But the next one will be good and I'll be okay!
Reward: All my hard work in school and applying to colleges finally paid off. I get a letter from the U of Arizona, and I am accepted!!!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Film Analysis

Horrible Bosses (2011)

Ordinary World: Dale is a dental assistant working for a horrible boss that is sexually harrassing him. He lives his day to day life the same way. Goes to work, deals with his HORRIBLE boss then goes to the bar to meet up with his 3 friends that are in the same situation.

Call To Adventure: Dales friends present him with an idea to "get rid of"" their bosses to help them survive their jobs they cannot leave.

Refusal to the Call: Dale thinks this idea is crazy and refuses to have anything to do with killing their bosses.

Meeting with the Mentor: Dale and his friends go to the most dangerous town in the state they live in where there is the most carjackings according to Gregory. They talk with this young fella and he says he will help them out to kill their bosses.

Crossing the Threshold: Dale and his friends do some "recon" finding out exactly what their bosses do on a daily basis. Getting into the mind set that they are going to kill their bosses.

Tests, Allies, Enemies: Dale faces Mr. Harkin, one of his friends bosses, one of the bosses they are trying to kill. Mr. Harkin finds Dale covering watch while his other friends snoop through Mr. Harkins house. Mr. Harkin has an allergic reaction to peanuts in front of Dale. Dale is trying to save him with his allergy shot, and his friends see him through the window and it looks like Dale is stabbing Mr. Harkin.

Ordeal: Dale goes to Mr. Harkins house to put peanuts in his shampoo so he will die from the allergic reaction. He then talks to his friends and tells them he doesn't think he can do this. That it would be wrong to kill someone. Dale and his friends are asked to the Police station for some questioning because there is suspision that they have something to do with killing one of the bosses.

Reward: In the end Dale blackmails his boss in the act of sexually harrassing him and tells her he is taking a 2 week expensive vaction that his boss his paying for and tells his boss that if he returns to his workplace the same way, his boss will be sent to jail.

Friday, November 11, 2011

OrDiNaRy WoRlD

Meet Danielle. She is an 18 year old high school student. She has an every day routine Monday through Friday. Wake up, go to school, go to work till 11pm, then go home and do homework, then go to sleep. Rinse and repeat. Weekends aren't that exciting either. Work all weekend, and sleep. She lives an ordinary life. Not too fabulous. The money situation in her life is really tight, and she barely has anything.
Until one day her mom came to her and said, "Sweetie, we have to move out of Utah. Pack your stuff." They packed up for 24 hours straight. On the road they go headed towards Arizona. Danielle didn't want to move. Leaving where she grew up behind. She was the new girl in school. Always being laughed at, and picked on. There was a girl just like her that walked up and down the halls with her head bowed down in shame. One day they conveniently bumped into each other. Confused, Danielle picked up her books and walked away as fast as she could.
Danielle avoided this girl every day. For some reason there was something different about this girl and she did not want to be apart of it. Eventually this strange girl caught up with Danielle. When Danielle looked at this girl, she realized she had been avoiding herself the entire time. Hiding from who she truly is.